I am having a moment right now. I just need to take a deep breath before I share.
In... out... in... out.
Okay, I'm ready.
I just finished Shauna's Present Over Perfect a few weeks ago, and it honestly felt like the end of an era. Like the last scene in the last Harry Potter. Like waving goodbye to friends and family as they drive away and leave you in a new state. Like setting your alarm for 5 a.m. for the first day back to school after a break.
Hang on. I need another minute.
You see, I grew up with Shauna. She brought me into deep friendship with my bestie Emily, through her book Bread and Wine. My first year of teaching, that same book was my comforting blanket, the thing I returned to when nothing else seemed familiar. I also made her Breakfast Cookies every Sunday for that entire year. And, now, she's helped me along in my realization that I was not living life as it should be, in the fullness of love and joy that our sweet Father has for us.
One things Shauna has taught me is that life is meant to be lived in seasons. For every season of hustle, there should be an equal and opposite season of rest. Many of us do not live by this rule, but I hope to keep giving you the kick in the pants to jump on the Rest Train with me.
Similarly, for every season of Hello, there is usually a season of Goodbye. This season feels like that for me. For 2-3 years, I said "hello" to everything possible. Hello, new state. Hello, four different homes in half as many years. Hello, new career. Hello, new opportunity in that career. Hello, new opportunity. Hello, new opportunity. Hello. Hello. Hang on. I'm suffocating a bit.
I need another minute.
Now, I'm in this season of "goodbye," and it's not as dramatic as it sounds. I'm saying "goodbye" to things in my home I don't need, or even think about. I'm saying "goodbye" to my false assumptions about what my life should be. I'm saying "goodbye," but it feels like an even more beautiful "hello" is around the corner. I might be able to say "hello" to things I actually want, things I need, things that give me life, rather than only things that everyone else pushes my way.
So, even though I said "goodbye" to Shauna for now, maybe the new season will allow for some rereading and revisiting what she's taught me, and learning new things from her heartfelt words.